finding a new normal. creating space. searching for balance. when we face major life changes, we do all these things to try to hold on to the self we once knew while embracing the good parts of change.
before elsie came along, I was used to balancing my letterpress life with all the other parts of my life: I would take an occasional friday off from my full-time job to print, I taught letterpress workshops and did craft fairs on the weekends, I took design classes in the evenings. after elsie was born, I spent two months at home full-time with her and then went back to work part-time. balance was really hard. after a lot of family discussions about the many factors involved, I decided to leave the job and be a stay-at-home mom. or so I thought.
it turns out I’ve become less of a stay-at-home mom and more of a work-at-home mom. I feel so fortunate to be here for my daughter every day and that I’ve also found time to design, to print, and to teach. the arrangement takes a lot of planning, coordination, and the willingness to jump right into work mode the minute elsie falls asleep for a nap. it means that sometimes I reply to email at 1am and sometimes I wear elsie in a baby carrier while I print. it means that while i’m at the studio I feel guilty that the dishes are piling up and that while I’m doing dishes I feel guilty that I haven’t been to the studio in days. it means that eric gets some quality one-on-one time with elsie while I’m tending my booth at the market and that we really make the most of the time we three get to spend together.
I want to spend more time in this blog space, sharing my work and my new life. but I also want to be honest and open about what that life is like. since being a mom is a huge part of who I am and how I spend my time these days, I want it to be reflected here. for the most part, I’ll post letterpress news on the blog, but I’d like to carve out a little corner to share mommy news, too. I hope you’ll stick around for all of it!
(thanks to jose for that last photo, which was taken on his phone while i was printing so forgive the blur)